I think it's been understood that I'm not that great! We all know it.
I'm pretentious. I started thinking of myself as something more than I am in order to stop thinking of myself as nothing. I'm not sure which is worse.
I'm clumsy. Especially with people and words and feelings. Especially with you. I'm sorry. I want so badly to be someone who can make things better, but my thoughts get too loud and I can only be disagreeable and abrasive.
I know you don't need me, just like you believe he doesn't need you.
I'm not sure anyone needs anyone, but I'm fairly certain everyone needs everyone. Or everyone needs someone. Or everyone wants someone but maybe that someone doesn't want them. Or everyone wants nobody but needs everyone or someone. Something like that.
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Fact is, people exist and we are not alone. And we are not as big or great or important as we like to believe. But we also aren't as small or useless or unwanted as we tend to think.
I'm just going to try to be a little bit better, a little bit happier today.
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