things i'm thinking of this morning.

I'm so confused about college. I wish someone would tell me what to do. Too many choices, and I've no idea what choices are the right ones.

Fionna and Cake are coming back!

As far as relationships go, I don't believe that exclusivity or permanence is perfect for everyone. I don't think everyone needs to get married. I don't think identical, cookie-cuttered relationships work for us all. Some people just want a cuddle buddy, a lay, a long-term friend, a housemate. And sure lots of people want a husband or a wife. But to just assume that that's the perfect relationship and look down on people who don't choose it is just sort of rude.

There have been about twenty moments I've come so close to telling her I'm queer... But then she takes her shirt off in front of me and I figure it's probably not a good time. It's complicated, I'm not attracted to her, but I don't want her to over-think things. She leaves tomorrow, will I tell her tonight or let it be...?

I don't want to go to the fair, urgh, why did I make this promise, I'm tired and driving sucks.

Mom seems to have accepted the idea that I'm not straight. But she cried, she's sad that I might be treated poorly in life. It sucks that it's hard for her. It's obviously kind of hard for me, too. I still can't openly discuss the topic with her, but I guess this is better than being scolded or belittled.

On the other hand, she attacks everything else that I am--the way I dress, the way I think, the person I've become. She says I seem more bitter and miserable than I used to be. I told her I used to be sad, all the time. She told me I'm imagining things. I'm still irritated about that whole conversation.